To me, it is a fact that people do tend to grow and mature as each year passes. Every year has taught me something new and valuable. I take my life experiences as tangible assets to me. Whenever I encounter a similar situation or difficulty, it is that asset which I have experienced before that takes me through it with greater wisdom and purpose.
Firstly, let's talk about girls.
All I've discovered this year is that I'm not going to let my guard down that easily anymore. It becomes ridiculous to me over the fact that I am letting this someone control everything I think, do and breathe about. I don't want to feel trapped, insecure or wallowing in self-pity anymore. Relationships are a two-way thing...if one party doesn't throw in a hundred percent, the other party isn't obliged to.
Much like the chorus of Maroon 5's Give A Little More.
I'm not falling in love with ya, I'm not falling in love
I'm not falling in love with ya, I'm not falling in love
'til I get a little more from you baby ohhh
Get a little more from you baby
Moving onto much happier things, there are two things which I am particularly proud of this year. One being my semester 1 results and other being my commencement of driving lessons.
At the start of 2010, I wrote down a list of items which I will be praying for/about. It includes myself, Mum, Dad and my brother. One of the items were: "Attain high GPA of 3.7 and above.", which I did.
Was it because of God's blessings or was it purely my hard work? I don't know. I'm in a limbo between Man and God now. I just want to say that I DO question the bible. The bible was written by man, and yet man is not perfect. So how can it be that the bible holds the most accurate truths of what God intends for mankind?
Matthew 16:24 (NKJV): Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me."
God...I don't know. I am tired from all the following. Granted, Pastor has always mentioned that the Christian walk is not an easy path. Perhaps I've hit a really huge bump in my walk...
Hahahaha. SSDC's tagline never fails to crack me up.
So yes, I have already passed my basic and final theories with scores of 50/50 and 49/50 in one attempt. I'm currently awaiting my practical test which would be due in another 2-3 weeks.
27 August 2010 was my 18th birthday. I didn't want no parties, late nights or getting drunk just because I've finally hit the legal age. I wanted my driver's license, and I wanted it ASAP. I have grown sick and tired of Singapore's public transport system. Inconsiderate commuters form the crop of the bane. On the day itself, I got Mum to accompany me to SSDC to book my basic theory test. Passed it on 11 October, and immediately applied for a PDL to begin driving lessons.
I must say, the close to 2 months spent at SSDC could quite possibly be the highlight of my entire year.
Because a typical school day ends at 3.30pm, the only session I would be able to take is session 5 at 5.55pm. At about 4.30pm, I would have completed RJ and whatnot. This is where horrible begins. I need to wait for about another hour before heading down to SSDC for lessons. I remember those days where I would be all alone in class after everybody had left. Those days were still okay compared to the days where there was UT and there would be no internet connection. Absolute hell.
The bus would then drop me about 400m away from SSDC. There would only be my iPod and me during the long walks. On some days, it would be really warm and sunny, and then there was a period where it was really hazy, and finally there was one occasion where Zet and I were totally drenched from head to toe. We had to take a cab back home to change before coming back for lessons.
Onto the actual driving lessons. The kind of instructor you would get for the day is purely based on random luck. On good days, I would get instructors who are chatty AND knowledgeable at the same time. On bad days, I would get the instructors who are just out to make your day even more miserable. Apart from the cyclists/pedestrians I nearly banged into, walls I nearly drove into and all the roadside kerbs I've mounted, I would say that it was a great experience learning at SSDC! Honda City...yeaaaaah.
On December 4th, I passed my final theory test. Booked my practical test for the 18th of January. I can't/won't/mustn't fail.
So there you have it, the highlights of my 2010. Taking all I've experienced and learnt, I'll defnitely be putting it all into good use in 2011.
I can't wait to see what tangible assets 2011 will bring to me.
